http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/ jUsT sUrReNdEr... Thu, 30 Sep 2004 18:55:55 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2004. http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/14.html Fri, 01 Oct 2004 02:52:43 GMT man, im just amazed by guys. they are just so unbelievably hot to me today!! and i dunno why that is, but some of them, i was just floored by their looks today!! LOstBLacKHeaRT33 (9:40:08 PM): imean they are fun o look at, but it hurts knowing the ones you cant have TinKerbella 301 (9:35:56 PM): yeah ikr.. if only.. (sigh) golly, golly,golly.... me and ash were takling about this an it made me so well not sad, but it made me realize a lot of things. no matter how many guys you like, you won't ever be able to have them all. doesnt that suck monkey nads? i mean, gosh sometimes it just... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=14 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/13.html Thu, 30 Sep 2004 03:26:22 GMT jeez we have been outta school for 3 days and now it is time o go back... durn it!! lol. man our foos-ball team ( lol ) is not gonna wanna play any game on friday since they only have one day to practice. but hey, we won a game! so ill be impressed if we win nother (( no offense to any of the football players )) but yah so anyways... in other news... me and ahley were at the mall yesterday and we went into dillards. and everytime we go into dillards, and we see dresses, we go try on some that we like. well... we both found 2 adorable dresses, and ya know we try on the first ones, we... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=13 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/12.html Sat, 25 Sep 2004 21:57:54 GMT man... last night was not very great for me. i mean, the vipers actually won a football game (( and that'll prolly be the only one they DO win )) which, of course that was great and all. but there was just, this stuff. i could not stop hinking about it, and it just made me so sa. ashley kept saying, "c'mon melissa, please smile..." but i didnt/. it just didnt feel like a moment for me rto smile. i felt like goig behind the bleachers where no one cuold see me and srat crying, that's what i FELT like the moment should be. i just needed to cry, but i couldnt. not in front of everyone. i just... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=12 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/11.html Mon, 20 Sep 2004 23:18:07 GMT i got home not too long ago. instead of going to drumline practice (( since there wasnt any )) me ash and tito went to justins house. we played pool for a lil while, ya know just chilled. is was weird cause the only times i would go over to his house, well.. was when weregoing out and stuff. so yah that was the first time i ever really went over there just to hang out as friends. i just regret going over there cause it makes me realize some things. but ya know, im not gonna say them in this. i dont wanna talk about them. i dont feel like getting sad today. im gonna be happy! lol. but ayh... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=11 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/10.html Thu, 16 Sep 2004 21:05:00 GMT well today sucked big. in band today, the drummers all got to go into another room to practice a cadence. well we practiced the one cadence about oh i dunno maybe 3 or 4 times. then we moved on to our hardest cadence right? well we strated to play it, but everyone (( mostly everyone )) had forgotten it. and plus our drum teacher dude sane, said that since it was like super duper hard that he was gonna spoon feed t to us. so yah we all get frusrated and people strat bickering and then (( im not gonna mention names or ne thing to be nice )) someone said that we just were gonna sit in there for... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=10 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/9.html Thu, 16 Sep 2004 00:01:02 GMT man i am starting to have mood swings left and right. it totally sucks cause it is almost that"time of month" for me... again! as if i havent had enough pain this week... (( i mean on saturday when i went to my oh so favorite place in the world )) yah right lol! has anyone ever heard of a guy called edgar allan poe? man, we were reading about him in my englih class today, (( but i already knew about him before hand anyways... )) but yah im like totally in love with his poems and stuff. and his life was so sad and depressing too! but ayh enough of that... read this poem called the raven.... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=9 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/8.html Wed, 15 Sep 2004 21:33:49 GMT today was awesome. we ( the drumline ) all practiced our new cadence, and we already have it memorized from only playing it today. isnt that freakin awesome? the bad news is, we have to learn 8 more pages! wahoo! lol. and we still have to go to school early on fridays. we begon paying at 8:05. oh joy right? not really now i hafta get up earlier just to be at school! waaa! aha! hey ashley remember the duffs? lol. today at lunch we were talking about how there is always a fat girl inna group of 3 girls that are friends. lol. so we ( me ashley and caroline ) were trying to figure out who the... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=8 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/7.html Mon, 13 Sep 2004 02:43:00 GMT MUSIC: matchbook romance, promise MOOD: eh, so so... not happy, not sad do you know how people say that they wish they could take backtime and correct what they did wrong? well i used to always think about doing that. what i'd change, what actions i would have said, what actions i would have made.but if you DID go back in time, then wouldn't you just go back with the same knowledge as before? cause i mean, if you are in the future, then you go back in time, who says that you would take the knowledge you have now, BACK with you? just think about it. i dunno if this makes any sense,... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=7 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/6.html Sun, 12 Sep 2004 19:36:18 GMT im talking on the phone to jimmy rite now... yah it's great. we're 5talking about going up to random people and giving them flowers lol.. but yah. today im inna ok mood. my lower quadrant still hurts a little bit, but i will be A-OKAY! ;) dude im so bored rite now. you just DONT UNDERSTAND!! i needa get outta my home! maybe ill go and pay random visits to peoples houses someday!! you guys always said i was welcome over there whenever i wanted to come! so im gonna go over someday!! yay for me!! someone needs to call me. cause this is pathetic that im all alone 24/7 doing nothing. or... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=6 http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/archive/5.html Sat, 11 Sep 2004 21:30:15 GMT well... today was very interesting... i woke up at 3 in the morning, with intensly sharp ain in my lower left quadrant... (( next to my hip bone )) and i stayed up al night do to those horrible pains. i was already awake when my mom came inside my room to wake me up for practice at the gym, and i told her about my sharrp pains. she called my coach and told her i wasnt going to pratice. she took me to the doctors office, but of course they HAD to be closed. so my mom took me to the hospital instead. we waited for about an hour or so, and then the lady person called me back. i hadda fill out... (more) http://justsurrender.blogdrive.com/comments?id=5